blog masa bad mood, xyah baca...

hari ni sangat emo dan sgt bad mood... pms kot.. every little thing yg xde kaitan pun boleh combine and make my mood even worst...

1st of all, i feel completely useless (for the time being) in my IP group... rasa mcm x menyumbang apa2 pn lagi stakat nih.... next, duduk ngan dev kat cafe, pastu dtg pali, amar, shuhazi... ble tgk ak sorg je pompuan dok kat meja, ak teringat beberapa statement yg beberapa manusia penah buat pasal ak... antaranya "rab tu, dia suka lepak ngan bdk laki je"... other than that, ada gak instances where, some1 is looking for me, and my "lurvly" "friends" could only answer "rab? dia xde kat sini, ko g cari dia kat tmpt lelaki"... like wtf? what are those statements suppost to mean??

this is the way i wud interprate those statements:
-rab gatal
-rab desperate
-rab pelik, unlike other girls.

hell-o, ye, mmg ak lain daripada korg, i AM different frm most girls, simply because i befriend EVERYONE, and ak x bezakan org ikut jantina la, ak layan kwn ak semua sama... SALAH KE??

lagi satu, yes i am different from most girls, simply because i dont like the idea of clicking...
-ada geng bdk kolej 5-6 org tu
-ada geng 3 org tu
-ada geng 4 org tu
-ada geng 5 org tu
-ada geng 2 org tu
all these girl have clicks, and klu kuar slalu dorg2 je, antara click sendiri je, blah blah blah...
no no, im not saying its wrong, its not wrong at all... tp bila geng ni xnk lepak ngan geng tu, geng ni x brapa mesra alam dgn geng tu, THAT is wrong....

and i dont belong to ANY of these clicks... so what does that mean? i dont have any close friends lorh... xde g lepak kat mid valley ngan sesapa, xde g skating ngan sesapa, xde kuar makan dgn sesapa... senang kata x diajak oleh mana2 geng yg kuar sbb im simply NOT part of the click... klu ye pn kuar dgn mereka sbb kebetulan pada masa itu ada dgn mereka... aiman x kisah... no hard feelings at ALL... ak dah biasa sorg2... tapi, just because i dont do 'clicks', perlu ke nk anggap ak pelik?? memandangkan i dont get 2 hang out with most of u, of coz la ak kuar sorg2 je, g tgk muvie sorg, g kuar makan sorg, g shopping sorg, g memana sorg, biar la.... kenapa perlu disebut2 kepelikan ak? SALAH KE??

yup, i know, all the aforementioned issues are trivial, nothing serious pun kan? tp memandangkan tgh bad mood, everything has been magnified... huhu... smpi td tunggu bas nk balik bilik pn boleh berair-air mata sket... im not a sensitive person... sgt2 jarang bad mood and sgt2 jarang nk marah2 org... but if the time is wrong, semuanya salah... sighs.. smpi td dpt tau kengkawan yg agak baik kuar x ajak pn boleh terasa.... buat benda beramai2 x ajak ak pn boleh kecik ati... td duduk kat meja tu, tp lepas amek makanan xde tmpt nk duduk kat meja tu, tu pun boleh terasa ati.... adeh susah btol la klu dah emo nih....

ni lah masa2 when i really miss nisa and amy... sgt2 terasa jarak yg memisahkan... my dearies yg xpenah judge me for who i am.... walaupun sblm kenal dorg mmg x suka ak, lol, tp ble dah kenal sgt2 baik, and menerima ak seadanya, kenal setahun je pn kat matrix, tp i dint take them long at all to know me... tp kengkawan kat sini, dah 3 tahun, ak x rasa ada yg btol2 kenal ak... and its just sooooo difficult 2 be me... ak x suka pretend mcm sesetangah org... kat bilik lain, kat dpn org lain... i am me wherever i go and whatever i do...

TAKNAK TERIMA SUDAH, AK X HERAN, ITS YOUR LOSS NOT MINE. fact.